A Step at a Time
It’s been almost 3 months since I left The Cabin and I’m happy to report that I am still sober and enjoying it most of the time – though I sometimes struggle, especially with bad sleep and fatigue.
I attend 2 to 3 meetings a week and I’ll soon be starting individual counseling and trauma therapy, as well. I also read Just for Today every morning and do Step 1. Whenever I feel really anxious I fall back on my meditation skills that I learnt at The Cabin, and use my ABC’s to relax when in doubt. I am working out more too and ride my bike whenever I can. I make a point to eat healthy and try not to smoke too much – I’m also working on reducing caffeine as it’s one of the things that contribute to my nervousness.
I’m trying to be more serene in all aspects of life – I’m trying to let go more. Take care of myself (being selfish sometimes). I’m doing so many things which I did not do when drinking such as motorcycle lessons. I’m also working on my boat and in my garden. I even have dates (sober), and visit ‘normal’ friends. Next Saturday I’ll be going off-roading with friends and family. These are the types of activities I plan to fill my weekends with.
I haven’t seen any of my hard drinking friends. I miss them sometimes. I have been able to attend yet abstain at many (work related and private) dinners and dates at which all people were drinking. The Friday evenings and Sundays are hardest – especially when the sun is shining.
I am more confident in my work as I am more on the ball than I used to be.
Overall good but it is hard and lonely sometimes. Comes with the territory I guess…